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AAAHHHH!!!  I was getting dressed this morning and jeans that I am positive fit fine a month ago now feel slightly tight.  I wore them all day anyways.  I am watching what I eat and I know that I need to exercise more, but I didn’t think it was gonna be this hard to lose even 5 pounds.  I need to lose much more than 5 pounds though.  The slightly tight pants made me think everytime I put something near my mouth.  My brother is getting married in May, I am in the wedding party.  We are going to get our dresses in December or Jnuary and I really want to be down a few sizes.  I am so frustrated and I am quickly losing my get up and go when none of the weight is going.  I do not want to quit, I have made that decision but OMG it is hard somedays.  There are day that I want to curl up and cry becuase it feels like no matter how hard I try, it’s not working.  I know, deep down, that I need to work harder and get more exercise, but it is so hard to get the exercise in after working all day, then taking my son to his tutor, then helping with regular homework…I am so tured by the end of the day, then I don’t want to exercise too late in the dy or I won’t sleep.  I have tried setting my alarm early, but I tend to hit snooze (without realizing it) and getting up at my regular time.  I think I need to go to sleep and start fresh tomorow…

Work is stressing me out!  We had another Manager fired today!  That is 2 Managers in 7 months(not to mention 4 others who were not in Management)!  People are worried, I was told not to worry because I do my job and I am good at my job.  There is still worry there…our dept is under the gun!  We are not the money making dept, we are the onrs who spend the money.  We desperately need to cut some costs, and the fastest way to do that is to get rid of people.  I don’t think that they are done with the slaughtering and that worried me.  UGH!!!

Even with that, I have had a good day so far. It should stay good since I have already eaten supper adn I am leaving in less than an hour for meet the teacher, followed by a movie in the park(where we are all going to FREEZE because it was only 10 celcius here when the sun was out).  I have had the sniffles for the last 4 day, but they made sure that all of ths kids knew about this, so there is no pretending that it ’s not happening.  I am going to bundle up tight, take a blanket, some carrot sticks and my bottle of water.  Wish me luck!

My day started out great!  I had a healthy breakfast and lunch…after work, everything went downhill!!!  I don’t know what happened…I was so hungry and ate sooooo much!  Tomorrow is another day, a fresh day.  Wish me luck!!!

Today was family day at my workplace.  It was soooo much fun!  They haven’t had one in like 20 years!  I remember them from when I was little (I work at the same place as my Dad).  My son had a blast!  They had a simulator set up so it felt like you were driving a BIG truck!  There was also a mine tour.  Lots of fun!  They had hamburgers and hotdogs and chips and all sorts of stuff.  I did good!  I only had a couple of hotdogs.

The 2 pounds that I was up a few days is gone!  I am so happy!  I have to get motivated to get excercising some more.  It is soooo hard!  I am also gone 3 nights a week with my son going to a tutor.  He’s not at the tutor long enough for me to go to the gym…ugh!  Oh well!  I ust have to keep plucking away and we will find some sort of rythm…

OK…I got on the scale today and after eating vry well for 3 days, I am up 2 pounds!  I am hoping i is just water or soemething.  I am getting way frustrated!  I have no get up and go, no motivation to go the gym, I am tired, I am hungry, and I am sooooo busy!!!!  I know…a bunch of excuses!  I am working through them.  :)  Honest!

My son is in a MUCH BETTER mood today which also helps!  He was so cranky last night. BLAH!!!  I made him goto bed early and stayed with him until he was asleep.  He desperately needs to sleep in tomorrow and maybe catch up.

OMG!!!  There are day when my son drives m UP THE WALL!!!  These days I want to grab a huge bowl of ice cream or something for comfort!

I was looking at pictures from 2 weeks ago…OMG!!!  I am so huge!  I think that maybe it was an awakening for me.  I printed off a picture to put in my wallet.  Maybe it will help.  I sure hope so…

OK…so I had to get gas tonight…it shouldn’t be a big deal…I went in to pay and I stood there for 5 minutes looking atthe chocolate bars to decide which one I wanted before I realized I didn’t really want it, it was just because they were there.  Needless to say, I did not give in, but old habits die hard…

My computer is acting up so I will be on only when I can borrow a computer from someone…I had a good weekend!  We went camping but  I didn’t overdo it.  i didn’t lose, but I didn’t gain either.  I bought a lot of fruits & veggies today so hopefully t will be a good week!  My computer is annoying me so I wil try to borrow one sometme in the next day or rwo…

OK…It has been way too long since I have been on here.  Between being gone on vacation and not having internet, it has been too long!

I have had some revelations over the summer…I am definately an emotional eater.  I eat crap when I am stressed!  I can also EASILY be talked into eating junk!  I have no will power at all!  That is a whole lot of bad combinations.  I had McDonalds for supper tonight…tomorrow I start fresh!  I need to up my fruits & veggies…I need to watch calories…I need to eat less fatty foods..I need to drink less pop…I need so much!  The good thing is that I know some of what I need to do.  The bad thing is that I am my own worst enemy!  Starting next week, I am back at the gym twice a week, after a 3 week break.  My gym partner was on vacation for 2 weeks (and I have discovered that I don’t go without her), then I was away on our next gym day, then it was the first day of school for the kids and we wanted to be home after work to see how it went.  I know!  I know!  A lot of excuses!  But we are back on track now.  There should be no more no show days until I go on my trip in late Nov/early Dec now.  Hopefully I can be down a few pounds before then.

I went to the weight clinic today to get weighed and get a mini lecture (because I haven’t been there in over 2 months).  I am the same as I was at my last weigh in there.  I am up 2 pounds since I was last on here.  I can deal with 2 pounds…it is just now time for it to go away.  My goal is 10 pounds before I go back to the weight clinic in 3 weeks.

I am not losing weight!!!!  I am trying really hard and I am going to the gym!  I keep going up and down 4 pounds!  It is so frustrating!  I don’t know what I am doing wrong, but I am wanting to change something.

I have had weight problems since I hit puberty.  I was diagnosed with polycistic ovarian disease a couple of months ago.  My blood sugar levels were tested and they are fine, so my dr said that I don;t need to be on the meds for anything but to regulate my cycle, but birth control pills do that.  uuuggghhh!!!  I have no idea what to do…